i dont know how often ill be updating this page. but heres some songs with lyrics i really enjoy. songs i really enjoy are bolded.

added 7/27/20:
mahria - lights
bare arms - the refrain
break water - five
foxtails - i experienced ego death on a skramcave thread
frail hands - holding
lord snow - wolfman and bilo
la luna - undreaming
nine of swords - snow ii

mahria - lights



Woke up the garden, ate apples one more time. Had too many questions, saw too many lights. My other Father; carry me from brightness. I love too much, care without purpose. The day that shines down is my one alone. Nothing else to live for, I'm in my only home. And where were you? I don't want you. A fissure crackles from the other side. Had too many questions, saw too many lights. Took my joy for my own, spent my time on life. Now the freedom I'm feeling comes from inside. Burning the garden I hear the fire. My body is warming, the sparks fly. And all those questions, and all those lights- They're burning too.

bare arms - the refrain

break water - five



Home is where the heart dies
Go ahead
You will anyways...

foxtails - i experienced ego death on a skramcave thread



try again
for some reason i’m not falling for it
eat shit, the mind games get boring
well now
i know
to
put on a
show
try again
i’ll entertain it for just a moment
devoid of care and of emotion
but now i
know
to
put on a
show

you fucked me, you fucked me
and now you’ll own me
you fucked me, please love me
please, please have mercy

help, help, help, fuck

my body is ruined
your scent runs through it
aching cavities
penchant for agony

run, run, run, fuck

drugged but coping
how annoying
even then you’re still
somehow below me

i dream of you
since you bled
on the bedsheets you
tucked remembrance in

try again

frail hands - holding



pushing out, pull me in.
just to start again and fade away.
you're holding out
to hold me in.
it's easy to see the forced feeling.
it's easy to see your selective memory.
never could discern the words and what they meant

lord snow - wolfman and bilo



Feeling trapped by the choices i make
i hesitate to make progress.
Split between my thoughts, between these thieves.
Stillness has become sacred, i must posses.
late nights they build me up, i digress.
A simple equation for self sufficiency,
i cannot derrive how will i survive?
A pill to take? A prayer to say?
Am i doing the wrong thing??????

la luna - undreaming



we fall apart at the sight of each other

nine of swords - snow ii



subtle glances are all i should recall but merciless grips are burned into my brain.
how do you get to be so cruel but i'm the one who feels insane?
why do we recognize evil but let it go about its way?
its the last thing i want but the first thing i take.
you make me so sick i can't stand my own face.