tuesday december 24 2019

melchior - one

if you told me i’d be this way
i’m certain i wouldn’t still be here
i feel like i shouldn’t have survived
it’s an achievement year after year
i don’t how i make it out of bed
half the time i don’t know
if i can make it
out of my head

and i still hear the words of my father
and i still feel my mothers palm
and i still remember that night
it must’ve made your heart break

and i guess
i feel like
virginia woolf
when she said
“i feel certain that i’m going mad again, i feel like we can’t go through another of these terrible times and i shan’t recover this time"

and i’ve cried so many nights
and i’ve took so many pills
i’ve deprived myself of life
and i’ve skipped so many meals
but i’m trying hard each day
even if it’s the least i can do
even when i can’t get up
i’m still trying to make it through




just a bit sweaty by kirstyorourkeart

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
saturday november 30 2019

genre: emotional hardcore, emo, screamo

father figure - what the hell is on jonny's head?

i wish something would kill me
because i'm too scared to do it myself



miss low self esteem 2012 by TheLamentation
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
monday october 28 2019

genre: emotional hardcore, emo, screamo

the khayembii communique - the thirtieth
here i drown in artificial light, in a cluttered room,
which has never really felt like mine.
and outside, the sun is rising
which i know by feeling,
not by sight.
i stare straight ahead and i feel time passing.
it's time to move out of this life and into the old.
and i try to fight it, i try to adapt,
i try to ignore the impending departure.
this chronic insomnia;
nothing but a pathetic revolt against inevitability.
a new begins and i can't imagine leaving the old.
while i know my time here ends,
your journey continues.
though you don't see it as such.
i hope that my time here has helped you to see that you must use your life to live.
i just want to sleep in your embrace, until orders for me to leave wake us. then we either drown or rise.
oh, were it only so that we could alter these facts.
usually one has a choice but here we can't do a thing.
had we been given a chance to bloom.
but, for once, all we can blame is circumstance.


waterworks by jokneeappleseed
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
sunday august 11 2019

genre: pedroom pop? idk dude

girl in red - i need to be alone.
i'm wasting my life on pointless things
i sometimes think
when does life begin?
i'm falling out of conversations
i can't pay attention.
repeat the question.
i need to be alone.
or I'm gonna lose my shit!
Oh oh, oh oh, i need to be alone
or I'm gonna lose my shit!
oh oh, oh oh
i'm waiting for something to change
cause everyday just feels the same
it's getting harder to exist.
i don't want to feel like this.
i need to be alone.
or I'm gonna lose my shit
oh oh, oh oh, i need to be alone
or I'm gonna lose my shit
i'm gonna lose my shit!
i need to be alone
i need to be alone
i need to be alone
i'm wasting my life on pointless things
i sometimes think
when does life begin
i'm falling out of conversations
i can't pay attention
repeat the question
i need to be alone
or I'm gonna lose my shit
i'm gonna lose my shit
i need to be alone
or I'm gonna lose my shit
i'm gonna lose my shit



by uglyfruit
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
genre: hardcore

Cloudgayzer - Cut + Scrape
Serve you with a smile
Serve to stay alive
Watch you consume and waste
While you waste my time
Things I must buy into
In order to get paid
Food service makes me want to die
Your tips wont pay for my complacency
My emotional labor isn’t free
Alienated from my work, did I sign up for this?
My only survival skill
Is serving rich tourists
Their entitlement sucks/They treat me like shit/Degrade me for tips
You will not continue to exploit me
You will not continue to degrade service labor
While also making it too expensive to survive here
Tourism fucking kills
Tourist economy is an enemy of community
No tourism under Trump



when i worked for someone else by shuturp
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
monday march 27 2019

genre: grindcore, powerviolence

Gets Worse - False Friends
GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU FUCKINNNNN ASSSHOLE


by Alison Zai
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
friday march 25 2019

genre: hardcore, punk

Ringer - Moxie
Got twisted in this fucking rage

Don't tell me it's a small complaint

I've always had to beat the odds
I've done it like my fucking job


Never had to prove myself
Don't think I'm gonna start today
It's never been a stupid race

I'm not crazy
I'm just fucking angry


the olive branch by Alex Krokus
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
thursday march 23 2019 11:00p

genre: screamo, scramz

I hate sex - i fucking hate sports
Life's just a pissing contest, and nobody exists on purpose
Things might not get any better, but they might get a little easier

You make me feel like a bug who has lived a full life, like a bee who has never had to sacrifice it's stinger

If you have the time, call me when you can
If you have the time, call me when you can

Life's just a pissing contest, and nobody exists on purpose
If you have no idea where you're going, it's fine, neither does anyone

Or maybe we could go together
Maybe we could go together


by lianafinck