Wednesday, August 2, 2017

the memories resonate and i withdraw
to an insult unwithdrawn

i motion the process of function and resonate with dissonance
it's okay, we can still be friends plays

you have bigger things to stress about than me repeats
i have to reflect on what i actually seek
habitual skill of narcissism cycles when you're not wanted around
the skill it actually takes to admit defeat
and i don't have enough downers to get drunk tonight
it feels like unfinished business
a miscarriage and a half built home

a view from isle 4 to the register to an insult unwithdrawn
it really is okay, we can still be friends.

Thursday, August 21, 2014

if this is a friendship contest, you win
validate your self worth
warrant your happiness
do what you need to do to feel you haven't lost anything
i can hardly feel it anymore

Thursday, August 21, 2014

admire my dull thoughtless eyes
idolize my soft serve privileged opinion
the itch for a cheap fleeting validation

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

erase any sense of ability and accomplishment.
rationalize the idea of non-existence.
visualize the loss
memorialize my loveless shell
rationalize the idea of non-existence.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

are our common interests mine or yours?
were we faking connection for fleeting affection?
i'm afraid to admit i still want it
everything i loved in him is what grew from you
and every scathing trait is absent.
but i was adoring a false image.
egos pushed aside, i don't care if we live or die
if you were on the edge i'd be your push
you're just as ugly as i am

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

off putting, dull eyes
perpetual state of disassociation
i cant be myself
the pressure to succeed
who do you want me to be
so afraid to fuck up
you probably won't even like me

replicate, imitate
did i do it right?
replicate, imitate
i tried and tried to do it right